Mar 192013
 
I can’t say I ever would have thought to check trail conditions before going out on a road bike ride. As it turns out, when your plan includes a riverside path in early spring, checking on the conditions of said path is highly advisable. What I thought was just some dirt across the path ended up being two inches of river-deposited, slippery mud. By the time I realized what was going on and saved a near crash, it was too late. So much for my nice, clean, pretty new bicycle. It lasted all of 25 miles before getting properly “broken in.”
A mile or so after the mud, the bike path was completely submerged. I was forced up onto surface streets, seeking a detour that would take me far enough south to miss both the swollen portions of the river and the construction. The detour signs were a little confusing and I missed a turn at first, but was a happy coincidence that led me to a familiar landmark:

I didn’t go in, owing to my muddied shoes and cleats that would tear up the floor, but it’s on the list now, especially knowing that I can ride there from my doorstep without much trouble. Standing there, with my decidedly modern garb and fast, modern bicycle, I wondered what Orville and Wilbur would have made of our current bicycles. I’d like to think they’d be proud of how far the science has come, which they embraced so early and with such passion.

Mar 182013
 

I’m in the process of cutting a little weight before the season really gets going, so my daily caloric intake is, well, a little uncomfortable.

But you’ve gotta have a cheat day. Enter “Faturday,” a term coined by a runner/kickboxer friend of mine. Last weekend’s version included this masterpiece, Chicken ‘n’ Waffles, by my sister Jennifer (whose blog you should be reading). It’s a Belgian waffle, with butter, fried chicken, hot sauce and syrup. And it. Was. Awesome.

Mar 172013
 

Yesterday was my first road running race of the year, the World Down Syndrome Day 5k, hosted by the Miami Valley Down Syndrome Association. It was run in downtown Dayton, which is a place I love to run, and on an interesting course that took us back and forth across the river a few times. Running downtown always makes me feel like I’m in a Nike commercial, especially early in the morning on a weekend, when it’s deserted and quiet.

The race itself was unusually challenging, for such a relatively short distance. I’ve been having some trouble with my left knee, and it was already angry with me when I was warming up before the race. A quarter mile in, I was in agony, and by a half mile, as the course angled back toward the start-finish area, I had pretty much decided I was going to quit. But standing there, at the turn, was my awesome little fan club, consisting of my wonderful wife and my dog, Max.

I couldn’t very well quit in front of them, so I limped on for a bit. The pain became overwhelming, so I slowed to a walk for a few hundred yards. I started thinking about last weekend, and about my little sister (who has Down Syndrome), and about all the pain she’s endured in her short life, and I got a little mad. Not at anything in particular, but just at the whole situation. I picked up to a jog again, and even though it hurt, it was less than before.

By the halfway point of the race, my knee had gone numb, and I was able to put it aside and just concentrate on my breathing and my pace. Turns out my pace was pretty decent, all things considered, and I finished with a chip time of 27:31, 19th of 87 overall and 2nd in my age group. So, despite some problems, I get to start the season with a medal, and I have high hopes for where this season can go, from here!

Mar 162013
 
A finer bunch of gentlemen, you’d be hard pressed to find.



I’d be less than honest if I didn’t admit that I drastically underestimated this race. I had figured on the mileage, and wasn’t concerned about it all that much. The weather was a welcome surprise, given the time of year. But I hadn’t thought about the elevation (4500 feet of climbing), or the mud (inches deep and miles long in spots), or the time it would take to negotiate both. And I wasn’t the only one having problems. Of the 150 teams who started, 45 failed to finish.

I was prepared and provisioned for all of it as well as I could have been, but we climbed more in one day than I think I did all of last season. I trained hard in the months leading up to the race, but I’m nowhere near the level I’d need to be to get through a race like the Death March without trouble. To paraphrase Don Rumsfeld, I didn’t know what I didn’t know.

But not all of that is bad. Sometimes, the only way to learn what you’re capable of is to be pushed far, far beyond what you thought you could do. That can take being plunged into a situation that’s over your head, with no real alternatives but to just soldier on. The most formative experiences of my life, I would contend of anyone’s life, are the ones that catch you off guard and challenge you in ways you could’ve never expected. For me, these are the experiences that have taught me about myself. They’ve made me strong mentally and physically, and given me drive, confidence, and motivation.

This race allowed me to discover things about myself I didn’t know, and remember things I had forgotten. I found that I could use my mind to dominate my body. I found that, when pushed to a certain threshold of exertion, you can tangibly feel, in minutes, the effects of each food you put in your body. I found that beating mercilessly on cramping muscles is surprisingly effective. Most of all, I found that camaraderie can be your biggest weapon in a fight against yourself.

These are the guys who helped me train, helped me plan, pushed, motivated, and cheered me through just about the whole process. Without them, I’d have never tried it. Because of them, I succeeded. To my brothers on the Mule Team, thank you. Can’t wait for the next ride.

Mar 152013
 

My own charge up the rise leading away from the final checkpoint lasted about 100 yards. The hill jutted up, and I shrugged, unclipped and started walking again. I told myself that it was only a mile or so to the road, and after that might be more climbs, so there was little point in burning the little bit of gas I had left on this hill. I switched the display on my cycle computer to show the local time instead of the time elapsed, and pushed on, and up.

The trail wound gently on, teetering on the top of a ridgeline before turning left and going sharply down. A series of rocky switchbacks, covered in loose rock and gravel, led all the way down to the same creek we had crossed a mile earlier. I was so busy negotiating the descent that I couldn’t look up, so I didn’t know until I splashed through the creek at the bottom that what faced me on the other side was the steepest climb yet.

I stopped, got off the bike again and stared, gobsmacked, at the surging, heaving, and ever-ascending gray ribbon in front of me. This was completely unridable, even on a fresh set of legs. I muttered obscenities and lurched forward, pushing the bike out in front of me for balance. The incline became so steep that I started using the bike like a walker, thrusting it in front of me, locking the brakes, and pulling myself up to it. I was only managing four or five steps at a time before having to straighten up and catch my breath. I knew I was working much harder than I needed to, but my legs wouldn’t allow me to straighten up and take longer strides.

I made it to the top, legs searing, shoulders heaving with each breath, and stole a moment’s glance over my shoulder at the ravine I had just traversed. I was immediately glad I hadn’t looked up before going down the other side, or I might’ve quit on the spot. The chasm between where I was and where I had come from was daunting, even from the top.

Before my legs could seize, I awkwardly remounted the bike and pushed off, selecting an easy gear and just trying to keep moving forward. After a few minutes, the trail went from singletrack to a soggy, wide path, and then to a double track before finally, mercifully, dead-ending into a gravel road. Hello, beautiful!

I paused to pull out my map and memorize the next few turns to get me back to the finish. It was growing ever cooler now. A slight breeze picked up, and I smelled in it the threat of rain. That didn’t bother me in the least, because now I felt sure I’d make it back. I was brazenly confident now, like I had just escaped the fire swamp. I folded the map to only show what I needed, stuffed it in my jersey (partly for convenience, partly for a wind block), and turned left down the gravel road, silently rejoicing at the ease with which I could now pick up speed.

The gravel road dead-ended into a paved one, and I paused to check the map again. I was no longer able to remember more than one turn at a time, such was the level of my exhaustion. That, and I knew that if I made a single wrong turn, it might be the difference between making it back on my own and having to call for help. In a fleeting moment of insanity, I contemplated turning due West, in order to hit another optional checkpoint. That thought was banished by another, when I looked at my cycle computer and saw the time.

There was still enough time before the cutoff. I was still in the race! If I really wicked it up, and didn’t hit any more debilitating hills, I might just make it in before the 6 pm!

It didn’t matter, really, whether I made it or not. I was already going to DNF, technically, because I wouldn’t be finishing with my teammate. But finishing within the allotted time on my own spurred just enough pride to get me moving, and quickly. I turned South down the road to a little town, using as much momentum as I could in the rolling terrain to keep my speed up. I coasted into the town, turned West, followed a quick jog in the road, and was greeted with an absolutely glorious sight. DOWN HILL! Not just a little one, but a gradual, gentle, pedaling-optional-for-a-half-mile down hill.

Despite myself — despite my fatigue, my aching muscles, my fading senses, my running nose — I attacked. I hit the big ring and stomped on the pedals, enjoying the instant reward in the rush of easy forward momentum. I had truly reached transcendence, the point where mind overcomes body and spirit overcomes both, and all you know is the rush of the wind past your ears, and the blur of the pavement and gravel speeding underneath you.

My cycle computer blinked furiously, spooling up to speeds I hadn’t seen in hours. When the road leveled out, I found myself running alongside a creek, and I knew that the road I had picked would follow that creek almost all the way back to the finish. That means flat ground, sports fans!

I hunched over the bars a little to get out of the wind and spun the cranks with glee. I kept my head just high enough to see and avoid the occasional string of pot holes, and picked lines where the gravel was most compact. Everything I could do in the name of efficiency, I did, and it was working. I was routinely near twenty miles per hour, and my tires hummed happily along. The clock was ticking, but I was at last making enough forward progress to think that maybe, just maybe I’d make it before it struck six.

A couple quick stops to check the map, and I found myself making my final turn, onto the road that would take me on my final leg, back to the finish. I was pedaling easily now, the pain in my legs either forgotten or entirely ignored, my head filled with the building joy of reaching the finish, and probably just in time. A couple farm dogs gave chase, and I giddily stood and charged to escape them, pouring on the speed for two little sprints.

My confidence flickered momentarily when, a few hundred yards later, I noticed a sign that read “ROAD CLOSED,” and underneath, “BRIDGE OUT.” Didn’t matter. I wasn’t going back the way I came, so the dogs could chase me again. And at any rate, the creek wasn’t that big. I’d wade across, if I had to.

As it turned out, the bridge wasn’t out, just closed, and that mattered to me even less. If it caves in under me, so be it. I got to it, heaved my bike over the guardrails fastened on either side, and struck out for the last time, the venue for the start/finish appearing in the distance. I had one obstacle left to negotiate, the same creek that had worried me so much before the start, in the morning that seemed, now, to be a decade ago. My exhaustion and elation had mixed to become reckless abandon, and I dove down the creekside, plowed through the water and charged up the opposite bank, grinning at the hoops and hollers greeting my arrival.

“He’s gonna make it!” “Thirty seconds!” “PEDAALLLL!!” “TEN SECONDS!”

I stood up and sprinted the last few meters, crushing the pedals with every ounce of force I had left, leaning forward and screaming defiance, quite outside myself in the moment.

And I made it. Against everything I thought I was capable of, I made it. I finished, and with minutes to spare, the somewhat-inebriated calls of thirty and ten seconds notwithstanding.

I finished the Sub 9 Death March.

Mar 142013
 
See all the brown squiggly lines? Those are levels of suck.

After the monster hill that almost beat me, I felt mentally stronger, even if I was flagging physically. I rolled into the next optional checkpoint, had my picture taken, and sat down to do my routine of eat/drink/beat on legs. I looked at the map, planning my route to the final checkpoint. It was nestled deep in the forest, up miles of singletrack that crossed more than a few ridgelines. The only way there was in, and the only way out was through.

I saddled up again, adding back a layer of clothing I had shed earlier in the day. The sun was nowhere to be found now, and a chilling breeze had picked up. A half mile down the road, I saw the trailhead on the right, and dove in, like I’ve done dozens of times at my local mountain bike parks. Except this time, I had no idea what I was in for, and I had nowhere near the legs to attack like I normally would. The trail wound through the woods in a more-or-less westerly direction, with a gradual climb giving way to steeper, more frequent hills. Downed trees and branches blocked the trail every few hundred yards.

I couldn’t get on and off the bike on the left side any more, because my left leg couldn’t handle the load. I took to not even clipping into my pedals, because I was having to get on and off so frequently. Every hill seemed to me to be a personal insult from nature, and I growled while I pushed up each one of them, pedaling when I could, walking when I couldn’t. I reached a junction where I thought I needed to turn, and I headed down the hill, picking my way through a trail more challenging than the one I had left. But a quarter mile down, two riders I had seen periodically through the day came up the other way, telling me it was the wrong trail!

I thanked them for the advice and turned to follow them back up to the junction. While we pushed, I heard more voices behind us, and looked down to see the rest of my crew! They had gone far enough down the wrong path, and then back up, that I had caught back up to them, even at my snail’s pace. I didn’t realize it at the time, but that was exactly the morale boost I needed. I had been alone for over an hour, and was really starting to suffer on my own.

I joined back up with my team, and we reached the junction and turned the other way, heading down an even steeper descent. At the bottom we crossed a stream, and then waited for another member of our crew who was starting to have the same problems I was. We crossed the same stream again, rounded a corner and found ourselves staring up. Again. Another climb. My fellow wounded crewman and I both cursed, dismounted and started walking as best we could. It was more than 300 feet of climbing up to the top. But at the top, at long last, was the final checkpoint!

Reaching it made all of us a little giddy. I got my picture taken, inhaled some energy blocks, and tore into a Clif bar with gusto. Then somebody mentioned the time, and our sudden cheer turned to urgency. We only had an hour and a half to make it all the way back to the finish line, and that entailed another mile or more of insanely hilly singletrack, and probably 10 miles of road riding! My own urgency was tempered by the knowledge that I could only do so much. My body and I had reached an agreement, and my end of the bargain meant taking breaks when I had to, and eating as much and as often as needed. So we all set off once again, me still chewing on the last bite of my Clif bar, and my crew charging up the rise leading away from the checkpoint.

To be concluded tomorrow…

Mar 132013
 
Hating life, but forcing a smile.

The weather seemed to follow my fortunes. What had started out as the brightest of early spring days had sunk into an overcast gloom in the afternoon. While I finished my snack at the optional checkpoint, the rest of my crew set off ahead. I knew they had good intentions of meeting me at the next checkpoint, but I also knew that my pace wasn’t going to be fast enough for it to be worth their wait.

When I was finally ready, I set out up the road, completely alone again, but determined to simply do what I could and make it to the finish. It wasn’t a race any more, at least for me, it was just a contest of survival. And somehow, I found the shift in mindset, and the solitude, oddly soothing.

I had just started to enjoy this new-found freedom when I rounded a corner and saw the road before me sweep upward. A lot. Until it disappeared into the trees. The little cheery warmth I had felt just moments earlier was immediately extinguished. I pedaled until the grade became too much, and then took to trudging up the gravel. Up and up I went, the hill getting steeper, my legs getting tighter. I was now limping, favoring my left leg, which had decided it had the worse end of the deal. The effort was actually leaving me short of breath, and I found myself having to stop and breathe with increasing frequency.

The climb became so steep that the road switched back on itself. Twice. Every time I thought I could see the top, it seemed to turn and rise a bit more. I slowed further still. I felt like I was doing a thousand reps of one-legged squats. I started breaking the hill into 30 second sections; walk for 30, rest for 30, repeat. I heard voices. Real ones. That must be the top! I rounded another corner and looked up, and sure enough, there was a small cluster of riders, and the SAG wagon! I pushed and grunted the rest of the way to the top, laid down my bike and slumped to the ground.

I was beat. Or very nearly so. The guys in the SAG wagon asked me if I was okay, and I told them I was fighting cramps. He offered me electrolytes, but I pointed to the half-empty bottle in the cage on my bike and said I was good. In a strange way, that reset my mind. I was still going, still well-provisioned, and I still had my bike. What was more, the guy told me that this was the biggest hill in the area, and I’d just come up it. I was exhausted enough that I had to hear him explain that I got to go down the other side before it fully registered with me. I had been trudging up for nearly a mile, and that meant that at least the next mile would be down.

The SAG wagon guys took off, to go play superhero for the next beaten and discouraged rider. I stayed another couple minutes, pounding my fists on my quads to get them to relax, and sipping electrolytes. Then without even really thinking about it, I pulled my pack back on, threw a leg over my bike, and started off down the hill.

To be continued…

Mar 122013
 

It was time to really grind it out. We hit the pavement and did our best to run as efficiently as we could. We stayed tight, spun up the hills and rested on the way down, moving our legs but not putting in any power. I was managing spasms and cramps regularly now. Every stop, every climb, every shift brought a new challenge.

We reached a little village, no more than a complicated intersection with a decrepit old country store, and turned south. A hundred yards later, one of our guys slowed with a flat rear tire. A couple riders worked to change it while I laid in the sun on a warm brick walkway, munching on energy chews and sipping water while I studied the map and stretched my legs. I had been dropping off the back of our group with increasing frequency, so while they finished the flat repair, I told them I’d hit the road for a head start, so they could catch me at their leisure.

It took them longer than I expected. I was on my own for about five miles, cranking away, trying my best to distract myself from my increasingly painful legs with the beautiful rolling scenery of the countryside unfolding all around. At long last, we reached another optional checkpoint.

Dismount. Get the camera out of my pack. Eat something. Drink electrolytes. Try to straighten my legs. Now we’re leaving again. So quick? Well, maybe we’ll rest more at the next one. More pedaling. Small climbs that feel like mountains. Another checkpoint, this one mandatory. While the rest are taking their pictures, I wander off, half to find a tombstone of a friend of a friend, half to try to walk out the problems in my legs.

One of my crew came after me after a couple minutes. I told him I was doing okay, but needed more rest than we were taking. I figured I could most likely finish, but I was working too hard to keep up, and they were working too hard to let me keep up. He shrugged it off, said we’d take a good stop at the next checkpoint, and I’d be fine. Immediately after setting off again, we hit a climb and I determined I was going to beat this one. I spun up it, chugging away on the big gears, concentrating my breathing and pulling through each pedal stroke with grim determination. The top came to me, and I clicked an upshift while gaining momentum.

My legs wasted no time in letting me know that was a mistake. The hill wasn’t particularly steep or long, but it was enough to set off a whole box of grenades in my legs. My group trundled off ahead while I negotiated with my legs for each successive pedal stroke. We turned left onto another gravel road, leading to a hill that I didn’t even attempt. I coasted to a stop, dismounted and started walking, figuring that it was probably faster to walk than any kind of speed I’d be able to carry uphill on the bike by this point.

Just over this hill was the next optional checkpoint, where my buddy had said we’d take a longer break. I broke into my pack for a package of fruit snacks and a Clif bar, feeling very much the orphan while the others took their pictures with their teammates. I was eating as fast as I could, but the other guys had gotten there a few minutes before me, so they were ready to go. I waved them on, and we agreed that we’d meet back up at the next checkpoint, only a few miles further.

None of us had seemed to notice how tight the contour lines on the map were between here and there.

To be continued…

Mar 112013
 

The first checkpoint wasn’t far, and only took us a few minutes of easy riding up a couple nice roads to get to, with a little gravel thrown in. Then there were a few gentle hills, long enough to get my legs warm and restore my confidence. We got into a loose little peloton, just cruising, enjoying the morning sunshine and the company. We turned off the main highway onto our first long, gravel road of the day, and everybody grinned. It was damp, a little muddy but hard packed, and the pace didn’t slack at all. We hit an optional checkpoint, climbed a lookout tower, sucked our energy gels and munched our Clif bars. Everybody’s spirits were high, buoyed by the crisp air, the cheery sunshine, and the thrill of the race.

A few hills after the fire tower brought the first signs of trouble. Our little group strung out, and the other teams that had been tagging along either surged ahead or lagged behind. I reached the top of a little climb and glanced back, only to be surprised by the distance to my teammate. I throttled back at the summit and waited for him, to make sure he was okay. He said he was fine, but far more tired than he should’ve been this early in the race, from such a moderate amount of effort. We shrugged, sipped some water and electrolytes, and pressed on.

A brief interlude of asphalt led us to our next turn, onto the road that would take us to the Northernmost checkpoint. It started as a paved county road, turned to hard packed gravel, then to loose gravel. The first climb triggered muscle spasms and cramps for my teammate, and we pulled off to the side for a few minutes to relax and hydrate. In another mile or two, after going around a gate, the road became not much of a road at all. For stretches lasting hundreds of yards, running streams had formed in both tracks, leaving the unenviable options of splashing through water or slogging through the mud on either side.

And then it got worse.

The mud and fallen trees created eddies and logjams of riders pedaling, now trudging alongside their bikes, now heaving them over an obstacle. A gentle but slick descent led to a climb that I deemed impossible at a glance, only to have two girls come past me after I dismounted. On the other side of the climb was an equally steep, but twice as soggy descent. I tiptoed down, playing the brake levers like piano keys, butt well behind the back of the seat. From there it was bog after puddle after mud pit after fallen tree for fully another mile before we reached a hard-packed gravel road again. We all agreed that it was fun, but of the hard, character-building type.

My ailing teammate had survived thus far, but was clearly in trouble. The cramps were becoming stronger and more frequent. And apparently, they were contagious. Half way through the bog on the north side of the big climb on the road that wasn’t, I had dismounted to get over yet another downed tree. When I swung my leg over to dismount, I nearly fell down when I suddenly felt what seemed like a dozen small grenades going off in my lower quads. I was able to catch them soon enough to stop the cramps from fully setting in, but it was a near thing, and sobering.

We soldiered on up the gradual ascent to the checkpoint (number three of five mandatory points), and got our required picture by the sign. But for my teammate’s legs, that was going to be all. We talked it over, and given the miles we had to go, and the condition he was in even after a lengthy recovery break, there just wasn’t any way he could continue. It wasn’t an easy decision for anybody. Him dropping out would me we both technically DNF’d, and he really didn’t want that. But the fact was that we were less than half way through (which we knew), and the big climbs hadn’t yet started (which we didn’t know), and to push on any further would’ve been to invite more serious problems. We called for the SAG wagon, and he urged me to ride on and enjoy it.

So I crammed down more food, re-oiled my chain, and struck out with the rest of our group for the next checkpoint. We’d received some timely intel from other riders that the path we had anticipated taking to the next point had been rendered nigh impassible by the recent precipitation and the steepness of the climbs. We instead selected a longer way around, but one that used passable roads and avoided some of the more major elevation changes. The downside was, our new route added significant mileage, and it was a long, long stretch to our next scheduled stop.

To be continued…

Mar 102013
 
My trusty steed.

I did something truly difficult yesterday. I rode in a race not many attempt, in conditions many wouldn’t approach, over a time and distance that fewer still could handle. I was bested by hundreds, but beat dozens of others. And more than all that, I pushed myself to a place I never knew I could go.

I’ve done a lot of races over the past few years. Last year alone, I completed over thirty races on foot and mountain bike, of widely varied distances and types. Normally, I don’t get nervous for races too much, except maybe for a few minutes just before the start. But then, normally I’m pretty sure I can do it. Normally, I’ll have trained to the distance beforehand. Normally, I know what the course will be like, and have some idea where it goes. Normally, I wouldn’t even consider signing up for something like the Sub 9 Death March.

But what do we learn about ourselves from only doing “normal?”

The Death March is a cycling checkpoint race. All of the checkpoints are old cemeteries in and around the Hoosier National Forest. There are five mandatory checkpoints, three of which you know beforehand and two they draw from a hat right before the race starts. How you get to those checkpoints, and any optional checkpoints (worth varying time bonuses) is all up to you.

I was a ball of nerves the night before. I’ve never ridden so far, up so many hills, with so little idea where I was going, or what was between here and there. I knew that even though I had been training, the furthest I’d covered leading up to the race was 20 miles, and that all on pavement.I spent the evening fiddling with the bike, adjusting things that didn’t need adjusted, checking and rechecking pressures. I slept for only a few hours, and fitfully.

Morning was no better. We drove to Bloomington in search of a place that was open for breakfast that early, and the trip set us behind schedule. We got to the race start with barely enough time to get registered and suited up before the start. This set the butterflies into a frenzy, since I wasn’t able to go through my normal pre-race rituals, stretching and warming up, setting my mind for the task at hand. Thankfully, much cooler heads were in charge of our little group, and so we lingered in the start area for a few minutes, finalizing our route plan and strategy.

Did I mention that the bridge over Hunter Creek was out? And that the creek, swollen from the recent snow melt, is between the start/finish area and the main road leading to the checkpoints? That was a major source of anxiety for me, all morning and up to the time we rolled out. It represented a very early point of no return, in some ways, and so many potential problems. What if your feet get wet, and you have to ride that way the rest of the day? What if you miss a soft spot or a big rock in the water and crash? What if you reach the other side and biff it going up the bank? What if….?

But there was nothing for it but to just do it. My team saddled up, clipped in, and nosed down the creek side into the water, picking our way through to a gravel bar on the far bank, and then up the other side. By the time I got to the road, all my nerves had calmed, my mood had brightened, and we were on our way!

To be continued…